Motivation?

So here's the part where I start losing motivation.

It all started when I got sick.

I didn't go to the gym for like a week, which was bad.

Now that I feel better, it's hard to even spend 20 minutes at the gym, much less what I was doing before I got sick.

As for South Beach... I don't know what I'm doing with it. I'm supposed to be doing Phase 1. I'm not. I'm doing Phase 2. But I need to do Phase 1. Agh. So confusing! Except not really. I need to get my butt in gear. I know that.

This is all for Dr. Posner. The thing is though, I'm losing weight. I gained back a little of what I lost when I was sick, then lost it all again, and that was just by eating healthy. So honestly, this whole "you need to do South Beach" thing kinda pisses me off a little. And that's something I really have to think about if I go ahead and do the surgery, because it's something I'm going to have to be on for the rest of my life. 

About the job... I quit. It was boring. Boring to the point of tears. I don't regret quitting one bit. So now I'm here looking for another job... which means I should have all the time in the world to go to the gym!!! But the motivation needs to be there.

I'm not sure if that whole post made any sense at all... thanks for reading if you did.