How Am I Doing?

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Thinking...

Thinking... thinking... thinking...

Thinking is good, right?

Although maybe not this thinking.

I'm rethinking the whole surgery thing.

Not totally... just... for right now.

I don't think I can do it right now.

I don't think I'm ready.

I think that maybe in a year or so I should go back to it.

I think this is why I've fallen "off the wagon"... I just haven't wanted to admit it.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Motivation?

So here's the part where I start losing motivation.

It all started when I got sick.

I didn't go to the gym for like a week, which was bad.

Now that I feel better, it's hard to even spend 20 minutes at the gym, much less what I was doing before I got sick.

As for South Beach... I don't know what I'm doing with it. I'm supposed to be doing Phase 1. I'm not. I'm doing Phase 2. But I need to do Phase 1. Agh. So confusing! Except not really. I need to get my butt in gear. I know that.

This is all for Dr. Posner. The thing is though, I'm losing weight. I gained back a little of what I lost when I was sick, then lost it all again, and that was just by eating healthy. So honestly, this whole "you need to do South Beach" thing kinda pisses me off a little. And that's something I really have to think about if I go ahead and do the surgery, because it's something I'm going to have to be on for the rest of my life. 

About the job... I quit. It was boring. Boring to the point of tears. I don't regret quitting one bit. So now I'm here looking for another job... which means I should have all the time in the world to go to the gym!!! But the motivation needs to be there.

I'm not sure if that whole post made any sense at all... thanks for reading if you did.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Sick.

Been sick for 5 days.

Haven't been to the gym because I can barely breathe by itself, much less breathe and exercise at the same time.

The good thing, I suppose, is how much I miss the gym.

Other good thing is that I'm now on a z-pack, so hopefully whatever is infecting me will be going away soon.

GYM I MISS YOU!!!

Saturday, February 2, 2013

It's been awhile...

I know, I know... It's been awhile since I last posted. I've been exhausted. Physically and mentally. And every time I sat down to write a post... nothing came out. So here goes.

I began a new job on Monday. It's retail, so I'm standing constantly. That's good for my health, I keep telling myself, as my feet and lower back are screaming at me to sit down.

Tuesday I had the long-awaited appointment with Dr. Posner's office. I found out some not-so-good news while I was there, which is probably why I have waited so long for this blog post. I have hypothyroidism, which is where the thyroid isn't working as hard as it's supposed to. I've known this for years, and have been on and off medication for it. Unfortunately, I'm currently off medication for it, and if my thyroid levels are off when they do blood testing, I'm going to need 2 acceptable readings, 3 MONTHS APART, for them to schedule surgery. So that was kinda a bummer, because it postpones everything. I guess I just had it in my head that I was going to go in there, get all the tests done, get the surgery scheduled, and go... not quite. Oh well.

Anyway, other than that, the meeting went well. I begin South Beach hard core starting on Sunday. I'm going to have some problems with that too though. Dr. Posner requires a food log. It's Breakfast, Morning Snack, Lunch, Mid-Day Snack, Dinner, and Night Snack. My problem is that I'm now working 9:45-3:30 pretty much M-F, I believe. I don't get a break, and I can't eat in the store. So breakfast isn't a problem, but there's no way to do the morning snack or lunch. I'm essentially going breakfast to mid-day snack or even breakfast to dinner, because I go to the gym right after work...

Oh yeah, I've also been going to the gym right after work every day. That's pretty good. I'm going to be switching trainers I think, just because of scheduling conflicts. But I'm switching to Bill, who is awesome because he has lost 100+ pounds. I'll miss Kim, she was also awesome, but so is Bill. I think he'll be exactly what I need.

GO SABRES!