Thinking... thinking... thinking...
Thinking is good, right?
Although maybe not this thinking.
I'm rethinking the whole surgery thing.
Not totally... just... for right now.
I don't think I can do it right now.
I don't think I'm ready.
I think that maybe in a year or so I should go back to it.
I think this is why I've fallen "off the wagon"... I just haven't wanted to admit it.
How Am I Doing?
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Motivation?
So here's the part where I start losing motivation.
It all started when I got sick.
I didn't go to the gym for like a week, which was bad.
Now that I feel better, it's hard to even spend 20 minutes at the gym, much less what I was doing before I got sick.
As for South Beach... I don't know what I'm doing with it. I'm supposed to be doing Phase 1. I'm not. I'm doing Phase 2. But I need to do Phase 1. Agh. So confusing! Except not really. I need to get my butt in gear. I know that.
This is all for Dr. Posner. The thing is though, I'm losing weight. I gained back a little of what I lost when I was sick, then lost it all again, and that was just by eating healthy. So honestly, this whole "you need to do South Beach" thing kinda pisses me off a little. And that's something I really have to think about if I go ahead and do the surgery, because it's something I'm going to have to be on for the rest of my life.
About the job... I quit. It was boring. Boring to the point of tears. I don't regret quitting one bit. So now I'm here looking for another job... which means I should have all the time in the world to go to the gym!!! But the motivation needs to be there.
I'm not sure if that whole post made any sense at all... thanks for reading if you did.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Sick.
Been sick for 5 days.
Haven't been to the gym because I can barely breathe by itself, much less breathe and exercise at the same time.
The good thing, I suppose, is how much I miss the gym.
Other good thing is that I'm now on a z-pack, so hopefully whatever is infecting me will be going away soon.
GYM I MISS YOU!!!
Haven't been to the gym because I can barely breathe by itself, much less breathe and exercise at the same time.
The good thing, I suppose, is how much I miss the gym.
Other good thing is that I'm now on a z-pack, so hopefully whatever is infecting me will be going away soon.
GYM I MISS YOU!!!
Saturday, February 2, 2013
It's been awhile...
I know, I know... It's been awhile since I last posted. I've been exhausted. Physically and mentally. And every time I sat down to write a post... nothing came out. So here goes.
I began a new job on Monday. It's retail, so I'm standing constantly. That's good for my health, I keep telling myself, as my feet and lower back are screaming at me to sit down.
Tuesday I had the long-awaited appointment with Dr. Posner's office. I found out some not-so-good news while I was there, which is probably why I have waited so long for this blog post. I have hypothyroidism, which is where the thyroid isn't working as hard as it's supposed to. I've known this for years, and have been on and off medication for it. Unfortunately, I'm currently off medication for it, and if my thyroid levels are off when they do blood testing, I'm going to need 2 acceptable readings, 3 MONTHS APART, for them to schedule surgery. So that was kinda a bummer, because it postpones everything. I guess I just had it in my head that I was going to go in there, get all the tests done, get the surgery scheduled, and go... not quite. Oh well.
Anyway, other than that, the meeting went well. I begin South Beach hard core starting on Sunday. I'm going to have some problems with that too though. Dr. Posner requires a food log. It's Breakfast, Morning Snack, Lunch, Mid-Day Snack, Dinner, and Night Snack. My problem is that I'm now working 9:45-3:30 pretty much M-F, I believe. I don't get a break, and I can't eat in the store. So breakfast isn't a problem, but there's no way to do the morning snack or lunch. I'm essentially going breakfast to mid-day snack or even breakfast to dinner, because I go to the gym right after work...
Oh yeah, I've also been going to the gym right after work every day. That's pretty good. I'm going to be switching trainers I think, just because of scheduling conflicts. But I'm switching to Bill, who is awesome because he has lost 100+ pounds. I'll miss Kim, she was also awesome, but so is Bill. I think he'll be exactly what I need.
GO SABRES!
I began a new job on Monday. It's retail, so I'm standing constantly. That's good for my health, I keep telling myself, as my feet and lower back are screaming at me to sit down.
Tuesday I had the long-awaited appointment with Dr. Posner's office. I found out some not-so-good news while I was there, which is probably why I have waited so long for this blog post. I have hypothyroidism, which is where the thyroid isn't working as hard as it's supposed to. I've known this for years, and have been on and off medication for it. Unfortunately, I'm currently off medication for it, and if my thyroid levels are off when they do blood testing, I'm going to need 2 acceptable readings, 3 MONTHS APART, for them to schedule surgery. So that was kinda a bummer, because it postpones everything. I guess I just had it in my head that I was going to go in there, get all the tests done, get the surgery scheduled, and go... not quite. Oh well.
Anyway, other than that, the meeting went well. I begin South Beach hard core starting on Sunday. I'm going to have some problems with that too though. Dr. Posner requires a food log. It's Breakfast, Morning Snack, Lunch, Mid-Day Snack, Dinner, and Night Snack. My problem is that I'm now working 9:45-3:30 pretty much M-F, I believe. I don't get a break, and I can't eat in the store. So breakfast isn't a problem, but there's no way to do the morning snack or lunch. I'm essentially going breakfast to mid-day snack or even breakfast to dinner, because I go to the gym right after work...
Oh yeah, I've also been going to the gym right after work every day. That's pretty good. I'm going to be switching trainers I think, just because of scheduling conflicts. But I'm switching to Bill, who is awesome because he has lost 100+ pounds. I'll miss Kim, she was also awesome, but so is Bill. I think he'll be exactly what I need.
GO SABRES!
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Up Up and Away!
So, I splurged last week and got myself an UP by Jawbone.
It's a simple band that I wear around my wrist all the time, and it tracks my movement and sleep. Then, I plug it into my iPhone, and it can do so much more! I can use it to track what I eat, my mood, how many calories I burn and how, and what is so cool is that I can use it as an alarm so it'll wake me up at the optimal point during my sleep cycle... I promise I'm not being paid anything to write about the UP, I just really love this gadget!
ANYWAY.
The most important news is that I begin a new job tomorrow! The key is to not slack off on the workouts, while I'm now working for numerous hours per week. It was easy to go to the gym once or twice per day while I was unemployed, but I think I'll have a good system. I'll just plan on going to the gym after work each day, NO EXCUSES!
The other news is that, after over a month of waiting, my appointment with Dr. Posner's office is this Tuesday. As in, 2 days away. I'm not nervous, just excited, I think. But I'll let you know how it goes!
Happy new week, everyone!
It's a simple band that I wear around my wrist all the time, and it tracks my movement and sleep. Then, I plug it into my iPhone, and it can do so much more! I can use it to track what I eat, my mood, how many calories I burn and how, and what is so cool is that I can use it as an alarm so it'll wake me up at the optimal point during my sleep cycle... I promise I'm not being paid anything to write about the UP, I just really love this gadget!
ANYWAY.
The most important news is that I begin a new job tomorrow! The key is to not slack off on the workouts, while I'm now working for numerous hours per week. It was easy to go to the gym once or twice per day while I was unemployed, but I think I'll have a good system. I'll just plan on going to the gym after work each day, NO EXCUSES!
The other news is that, after over a month of waiting, my appointment with Dr. Posner's office is this Tuesday. As in, 2 days away. I'm not nervous, just excited, I think. But I'll let you know how it goes!
Happy new week, everyone!
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Nothing much going on...
Just going to the gym every day...
Nothing much new...
Kim and I started working on legs yesterday. THAT was fun. NEVER thought I'd say that.
I've figured out that cardio is so much easier when I've got something good to watch on TV. Or perhaps a Sabres game to listen to. Because then I can just keep going and going and going... and suddenly it's been 40 minutes or so and it's like WOW where did the time go?
The only thing is that I was supposed to do chest/back weights today, and by the time I got done with my cardio I was too exhausted to do anything else. So everything else gets pushed back a day, I suppose.
I hope I'm not slacking on weights in order to do cardio. Cardio is important, but so are weights. I just don't feel quite as comfortable doing weights without Kim there.
I weighed myself the other day. I went up 0.4 lbs. It's not worth mentioning. I should have listened to Charles at LA Fitness when he said to not weigh myself for at least a few weeks.
I know I'm eating healthy. I know my portion control is better. I know I'm working out. But my body doesn't know what to do with all of this, so it's kind of freaking out on me. Especially with the weight training. I'll have to see what the scale says at Dr. Posner's office on Tuesday... that's the ultimate test. It'll have been about 2 months since the original weigh-in... we'll see where I'm at!
Nothing much new...
Kim and I started working on legs yesterday. THAT was fun. NEVER thought I'd say that.
I've figured out that cardio is so much easier when I've got something good to watch on TV. Or perhaps a Sabres game to listen to. Because then I can just keep going and going and going... and suddenly it's been 40 minutes or so and it's like WOW where did the time go?
The only thing is that I was supposed to do chest/back weights today, and by the time I got done with my cardio I was too exhausted to do anything else. So everything else gets pushed back a day, I suppose.
I hope I'm not slacking on weights in order to do cardio. Cardio is important, but so are weights. I just don't feel quite as comfortable doing weights without Kim there.
I weighed myself the other day. I went up 0.4 lbs. It's not worth mentioning. I should have listened to Charles at LA Fitness when he said to not weigh myself for at least a few weeks.
I know I'm eating healthy. I know my portion control is better. I know I'm working out. But my body doesn't know what to do with all of this, so it's kind of freaking out on me. Especially with the weight training. I'll have to see what the scale says at Dr. Posner's office on Tuesday... that's the ultimate test. It'll have been about 2 months since the original weigh-in... we'll see where I'm at!
Sunday, January 20, 2013
GO SABRES!
Well, Sabres season started today... and we WON! No better way to start off the season :-)
I spent the last period of the game on the bike at the gym. Yes, the entire last period... that'd be about 40-ish minutes. (I was babysitting for the first 2 periods. HI JULIE! Thanks for letting me babysit your beautiful girls)
I figure if I can do that every other game or so, spend a period or two on the bike watching or listening to the game (haven't figured out if they have MSG on the TV's at LA Fitness) then that's a good thing.
I didn't post yesterday, but I had another absolutely amazing session with Kim (the trainer). We worked on what seemed like everything that had to do with chest and back. She showed me how to do a bunch of things both on and off machines. I'd tell you what they were, but I left my booklet in the car and I am entirely too exhausted to go out in the cold and snow and get it now, hahaha.
I've been dying to get on the scale again, but I'm not doing it until it's been a week. I'm so curious though! I feel my clothes getting looser. I have more energy, and just overall feel better. I love this.
And because I said I'd mention her in a blog post:
Jorie leaves for Geneseo tomorrow so that'll be sad, because I've liked having her here :-( But I'll think of it this way... next time she sees me, I'll hopefully look smaller!
I spent the last period of the game on the bike at the gym. Yes, the entire last period... that'd be about 40-ish minutes. (I was babysitting for the first 2 periods. HI JULIE! Thanks for letting me babysit your beautiful girls)
I figure if I can do that every other game or so, spend a period or two on the bike watching or listening to the game (haven't figured out if they have MSG on the TV's at LA Fitness) then that's a good thing.
I didn't post yesterday, but I had another absolutely amazing session with Kim (the trainer). We worked on what seemed like everything that had to do with chest and back. She showed me how to do a bunch of things both on and off machines. I'd tell you what they were, but I left my booklet in the car and I am entirely too exhausted to go out in the cold and snow and get it now, hahaha.
I've been dying to get on the scale again, but I'm not doing it until it's been a week. I'm so curious though! I feel my clothes getting looser. I have more energy, and just overall feel better. I love this.
And because I said I'd mention her in a blog post:
Jorie leaves for Geneseo tomorrow so that'll be sad, because I've liked having her here :-( But I'll think of it this way... next time she sees me, I'll hopefully look smaller!
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